Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Shhh...Is That Opportunity Knocking

So after years of interviewing and second guessing myself and going several rounds with the Boxing Bitch (I've decided to formally give her a name), I may have just stumbled on an opportunity that would not only make me very happy but would be a great fit for my skills as well.  Something I would have never imagined would be available but something that's a perfect fit.

So using my newly minted AA toolbox, I wrote my letter to God asking him to please, please, please let me have this one thing (falling short of the 6 year old in me saying "and I'll never do anything bad again") because I really, really, really would like to have it. (On my knees no less - in my office.)

Now I'm trying to let it go and wait for an answer.  That's always the hard part for me.  I let go and turn it over to God, only to snatch it right back.  It's like I'm saying, "Oh no Lord I have to take this back.  You're not doing a good job and I can do a better job of managing my life."  Really?  How's that working for you so far?  Oh, and by the way, do you really think you can do a better job than GOD!  He's GOD for god's sake (pun intended).  I'm pretty sure that He can do a better job of managing my life than I have.  But, and this is a big but, it's so hard to let go.

So here I am, putting it the universe and asking for the wisdom to know the difference. 

But I really, really, really hope the answer is yes.  And I really, really, really hope I have the patience to wait it out.

1 comment:

  1. Hi, thanks for your kind comments on my blog... as you know, I've been right down this road recently lol. It aint easy, waiting. I prayed, tried not to make my wife insane lol. I'm coming out the other side after the disappointment of not getting my way and I'm still alive, and feeling better daily.

    Prayers for you, and good luck!

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