Shhh...Is That Opportunity Knocking

So after years of interviewing and second guessing myself and going several rounds with the Boxing Bitch (I've decided to formally give her a name), I may have just stumbled on an opportunity that would not only make me very happy but would be a great fit for my skills as well.  Something I would have never imagined would be available but something that's a perfect fit.

So using my newly minted AA toolbox, I wrote my letter to God asking him to please, please, please let me have this one thing (falling short of the 6 year old in me saying "and I'll never do anything bad again") because I really, really, really would like to have it. (On my knees no less - in my office.)

Now I'm trying to let it go and wait for an answer.  That's always the hard part for me.  I let go and turn it over to God, only to snatch it right back.  It's like I'm saying, "Oh no Lord I have to take this back.  You're not doing a good job and I can do a better job of managing my life."  Really?  How's that working for you so far?  Oh, and by the way, do you really think you can do a better job than GOD!  He's GOD for god's sake (pun intended).  I'm pretty sure that He can do a better job of managing my life than I have.  But, and this is a big but, it's so hard to let go.

So here I am, putting it the universe and asking for the wisdom to know the difference. 

But I really, really, really hope the answer is yes.  And I really, really, really hope I have the patience to wait it out.