So using my newly minted AA toolbox, I wrote my letter to God asking him to please, please, please let me have this one thing (falling short of the 6 year old in me saying "and I'll never do anything bad again") because I really, really, really would like to have it. (On my knees no less - in my office.)
Now I'm trying to let it go and wait for an answer. That's always the hard part for me. I let go and turn it over to God, only to snatch it right back. It's like I'm saying, "Oh no Lord I have to take this back. You're not doing a good job and I can do a better job of managing my life." Really? How's that working for you so far? Oh, and by the way, do you really think you can do a better job than GOD! He's GOD for god's sake (pun intended). I'm pretty sure that He can do a better job of managing my life than I have. But, and this is a big but, it's so hard to let go.
So here I am, putting it the universe and asking for the wisdom to know the difference.
But I really, really, really hope the answer is yes. And I really, really, really hope I have the patience to wait it out.