I fell off the sugar wagon this weekend...okay...I didn't exactly fall...I jumped.
Notice I said sugar and not carbs...this was definitely a sugar fest.
The boys asked for two things for their birthday treat. #2 son asked for Dirt which is crushed Oreos, Cool Whip, Cream Cheese and vanilla pudding. If you've never had it - don't try it. It's amazing.
#3 son asked for my special carrot cake and cream cheese icing. I didn't have time for that so I made the next best thing, Oreo Truffles and Cake Pops.
Oh. My. God.
I was BLTing all over the place (Bites, Licks, Tastes) and I finally broke down and ate some Dirt and a couple (okay more than a couple) of cake pops and truffles. And then I was full so I didn't eat much of anything else even though I know for a fact that eating protein with carbs will help to slow down digestion and somewhat minimize the sugar surge. Idiot. Stupid addict idiot.
I woke up with a headache that would have rivaled any hangover headache. AND I felt like crap. I had a sugar hangover!!! I was wrung out most of the day, tired, cranky...you know the drill.
It was facinating and I loved it.
This was just the affirmation that I needed. This stuff is poison to me. If I can't do it in moderation (which has already been established) then I just need to stay away. For good.
And here's the real thing...it didn't taste as good as I thought it would. I mean, don't get me wrong...it was GOOD. What's not good about Oreo's and cream cheese smushed together, rolled in a ball, and dipped in chocolate? But it wasn't as good as it should have been. It didn't sit on my tongue like I thought it would and it didn't give me the ahhhhhh that I thought it would. Strange.
So now I'm back on the wagon and I think I'm going to drive it for awhile. I'm sticking with the Induction Phase of Atkins for another two weeks. I need to refine the phase, take away some, not all, of the fat and add some exercise (now that I have the energy). Once I'm through this two weeks then I'll move on to Phase 2 which allows a whopping 5 extra grams of carbs a week until I find my optimum carb level. We're talking good carbs here people...vegetables, some fruit, some whole grains...mostly vegetables.
I'm okay with that. We had a cookout yesterday for the boys, and I didn't even miss the bun with my grilled chicken. I only ate a couple of tortilla chips which I loaded with salsa and guacamole to get my fill. I'm not missing French Vanilla creamer in my coffee as much as I thought I would because I have energy and I don't even need coffee the way I used to (ugh...I HATE ending a sentence in a preposition but sometimes I can't help it). After my headache, sugar can go pound sand...even Atkins Endulge Bars don't sound good right now.
I guess it's like any relapse...we come back stronger and more committed than ever.
Sherry, that's very true. I used to be terrified that a relapse meant I was returning to my old ways. Not so.
ReplyDeleteI still find them frightening, but I learn from them, and gradually my DOC becomes much less attractive and not enjoyable.
I suppose, in that way, relapses are an important part of recovery.
That "Dirt" sounds like something my kids would love . . . I might make some for them during the Jubilee celebrations, on a day when my will power is at its very best!
Take care x
Dont beat yourself up girl friend. I had a headache like that after all the cake I ate last weekend! How did we drink before? UGH!
ReplyDeleteI wonder that every day! How in the world did I survive that?
DeleteOh I know that feeling too well. I must be hypoglycemic. I feel cranky and tired after indulging. And after over-iindulging? Ugh. Gravely ill.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're back on track. You inspire me!
XO
Gasp... how delicious it sounded with Dirt! :))
ReplyDeleteHahaa and I loved the "BLTing", this I must remember!
Glad to have you back on the wagon, the sugarless ride may continue - big hugs to you
Oh boy, can I relate to this one. In April I did Phase 1 of South Beach in an effort to kick my crippling sugar addiction. I stuck to it for 2 weeks and lost 9 pounds, and the cravings did get better, but I've binged since then. I've been doing a half-assed version of Phase 2 and have lost 5 more pounds, but that's more due to running, I think. But what I could really relate to is the sugar hangovers. Monday mornings I wake up feeling ill and off, just like I was when I'd been drinking. I never noticed such cause and effect, but it's definitely not worth it. Though the way you described the oreo truffles made me drool a little. Hm.
ReplyDeleteI have to say that the Oreo Truffles were worth the hangover.
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