Thursday, December 6, 2012

I Want

Sitting around last night, the "I want's" started in my head. 

  • I want to be able to have a glass of wine like a normal person.
  • I want that feeling of ahhhh and to feel the warmth of the wine spread through my body.
  • I want to be able to go to a Christmas party and have wine.
  • I want to be normal and not an alcoholic.
But when I have those thoughts, I turn them around so they sound more like this...

  • I want to set a good example for my children.
  • I want my kids and the hubs to be proud of me.
  • I want to be healthy and not checking my eyes for jaundice.
  • I want to remember stuff.
  • I want a good nights sleep.
  • I want to enjoy food and not just eat to soak up the alcohol.
  • I want to accept invitations without regard to who's driving and whether or not they'll be access to booze.
  • I want to wake refreshed...or at least without little sweaters on my teeth.
  • I want sober sex and I want to remember it.
  • I want to live a long and healthy life.
  • I want to discover who I am and what my purpose is without a cloud of alcohol getting in my way.
  • I want to feel joy come from my heart and not a bottle.
  • I want to like myself and live without shame.
  • I want the beast to sleep and shut the fuck up.
  • I want peace.

Hmmm...when you look at it this way, there's really no comparison.  As my husband's mother used to say, "Don't let your wants hurt you."  Wise woman.

Namaste

11 comments:

  1. I can definately relate. Thanks for sharing. I am on my 4th day without a drink and craving red WINE! I am not going to drink tonight but it is hard especially since there is so much booze in the house due to my husband still drinking. My alcoholic walk of shame from 4 nights ago is making me not to drink which is a good thing. Have a good night.

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    1. Hope you're still holding on...you can do this. I promise.

      Sherry

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    2. Thank you, Sherry. I appreciate the support. I am on my 7 th day and still sober. I went to a comedy show last night where there there was alcohol being served and didn't drink at all. Take care, Jenna

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  2. I want to print this list off and carry it around it my pocket and pull it out every time I think I want a drink. I want to engrave it on my brain and heart.

    You know amiga, I've been going to a lot of social events lately that include drinking and I don't see anybody out there having "a" glass of wine or even "two" glasses of wine. I'm beginning to think the moderate drinker is a myth, a fabled creature, like a unicorn or Big Foot, many people claim to have sighted one but no one can present proof.

    I think a lot of people want what we got.

    Na-Na-Na-Boo-Boo!

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    1. That made me lol for real! I think you're right...there's actually only one person that I can call to mind that can truly take it or leave it...most everyone can moderate but they'd all like to drink all night and get a good drunk on.

      Nanny-nanny-boo-boo indeed.

      Thanks for the chuckle mija!

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  3. Love this one Sherry. Way to turn those wants around. In fact, the first section can be aptly titled "wants", but the second section perhaps better titled as "needs"?


    I need to feel joy come from my heart and not a bottle.
    I need to like myself and live without shame.
    I need peace.

    Beautiful and helpful post, thank you!

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    1. Excellent point. I like this way better.

      Sherry

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  4. Thank you. I'm printing this to carry with me.

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  5. Thank you for your honesty. Safe hugs to you.

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  6. I love you baby, and I'm proud of you for all that you do every day of my life...

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