Sometimes I just wake up on the wrong side of the bed. Today is one of those days. I'm grumpy and I don't know why so I'm going to chalk it up to, "just one of those days", and deal.
Quite a departure from what I used to do when I had one of these days. Rather than dealing or trying to snap myself out of the grumpies, I would actually cultivate the mood. If you cultivate a mood like this then you can create all manner of negativity which begets bad stuff and you're left with a bad day.
Which is the perfect excuse, especially on a Friday, to get shit faced.
But, of course, that is NOT what will happen to me today. Rather, I will whine for a while on this blog (feel free to sign off now if you'd like - I hate whining but sometimes its a necessary evil.), which will help me to process how I'm feeling. Then I'll feel silly and all "first world problems" and I'll realize how blessed I am and I'll fix my attitude and move on...cased closed.
Let the whining begin...
I have to go to NY next week. It's an unexpected trip. I have nothing against NY - it's a helluva town - but if you read my post from yesterday you know that these things not only drain me, they are hard for me to do. It's a new venue, with people I have never met. Therefore I will stress about it until I get there and everything turns out fine. Then I will relax and enjoy myself...except...
Except that it's totally throwing off my Jenny Craig thing. I know that Jenny makes food that I could take with me but not only does my room not have a microwave, who in the hell goes to NY and eats Jenny Cuisine? Not this girl. I won't over indulge but I will take advantage of some delicious, healthy meals. Then I'll stress over whether or not I've gained any weight. At least the hotel has a gym that I can use.
I hate my closet right now. I'm between sizes and we're between seasons so nothing fits and I'm either too hot or too cold all of the time. On the bright side, it's NY, I can wear black 24/7 and no one will even bat an eye. So that is exactly what I'm going to do.
I'm also stressing about the fact that I should be going to see things I haven't seen yet while I'm there (9/11 Memorial, Statue of Liberty, Stuart Weitzman's Shop on Madison) but the reality is that I know I'll be exhausted by the end of the day and just want to go back to my room. This makes me feel old and worn out and not young and adventurous.
Here's a newsflash Sherry...you were never young and adventurous...read your blog from yesterday.
The men of the house will be out tonight (including the hubs) at various activities which leaves me alone. Why doesn't this make me happy? I like to be alone now. Yes...but...only when I say. (I said I'd be whining...not rational.)
The humidity is back. Nuff said.
Now...on the bright side.
I'm staying at a beautiful, historic hotel in NY. I love crap like that. I will have a wonderful time AND I can get some serious workout time in.
I love wearing black and I have a closet full of it.
The Stuart Weitzman store is only a few blocks from my hotel...I'm thinking I can find the energy for that on at least one afternoon or evening.
I'm going to watch all my recorded TV shows that I don't get to see while everyone is out tonight. There is also a very long yoga session just waiting for me to get home this evening.
See? All better now!
"If you don’t like something; change it, change the way you think about it."