As you may remember, I prayed for this job. I worked in this office for two years as a contractor and fell in love with the people, the organization and the work. So when I heard that a position was going to open up, I called the manager and asked (begged) for the role. Then I shut the door to my office, got down on my old, crinkly knees and prayed. Hard.
It took awhile but God answered my prayer...and this time he said yes. So, in spite of the fact that the role I have can be frustrating and doesn't use my talent and experience to it's fullest potential, I'm here. I'm also making decent money with decent benefits in a company for which most people would be proud to work.
But my ego has been threatening to get in my way. My corporate title took a major hit when I took this job. A lot of the time, I'm doing work that is somewhat mindless and because the boss lady is a control freak, it takes her a long time to hand over projects so I get things piecemeal. But I knew all that when I accepted the position so most days I tell my ego to shut the fuck up and I go to work.
And I pray.
I pray that God, in his own time, will show me where I'm supposed to be and what I'm supposed to be doing. I pray that He helps me to keep that stupid ego in place and teach me when I need to shut my big fat mouth and when it would be a good time to open it. I pray for patience and perseverance while I build this next chapter in my career that will likely be my last in corporate America (of course...you never know). I pray for grace.
And once again, He has answered. The boss lady came back from a trip to headquarters yesterday with news that she's placed me in line for some new responsibilities that will use my experience to it's fullest and provide a promotion and a raise. It's not a done deal yet but it's very, very close.
So now I'm saying thank-you to the Big Guy for answering my prayers...all of them...even when the answer is not yes.
I'm also praying for humility and, most importantly, that next time I'm frustrated or questioning His judgement - I will remember to have FAITH.
I asked for wisdom...
And God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity...
And God gave me brains and the strength to work.
I asked for courage...
And God gave me danger to overcome.
I asked for love...
And God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors...
And God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.
My Prayer has been answered.
~Anonymous, (of Islamic origin)