Friday, October 18, 2013

Tatted Up




As some of you know, this little tattoo was one of the reasons I stayed sober in the beginning.  The thought of having it removed was too painful to contemplate and every time I raised my right hand I was reminded of my commitment. 

In two words...it worked.

But I'm past that now.  I no longer count days, weeks or months (hell...sometimes it was HOURS) since I had my last bottle of wine.  Now I mark the year but there's no big celebration like there was for year 1.  No balloons.  No cake.  No gifts.  (Okay that one I regret.)  It's just another day because being sober isn't what I am any longer, it's part of who I am. 

It. Just. Is.

I am not defined by my alcoholism or my sobriety...they are just a part of me.  Like my olive green eyes and my it's-not-fair-because-I'm-half-Italian fair skin. 

It. Just. Is.

So it's time for the date to go.  But instead of having it removed, I'd like to do a cover up.  So now the question becomes...cover it with what?

What do you guys think?  Any suggestions?  What should I cover it with?

Namaste



"Tattoos can denote the transition from childhood to young adulthood. It can denote the transition to reproductive availability or the transition from adolescent to warrior."*
ANTHONY NAPOLEON, Awakening Beauty


*Or the transition from desperate alcoholic to contented soberista.

4 comments:

  1. Did my comments on this get eaten?? ugh.

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    1. I guess so. Anyway, I was just saying that I stopped counting days and weeks and months a while ago. Nothing wrong with celebrating something as huge and life changing as sobriety, so I like marking that on the calendar, even if it's just acknowledging it. But at first, like you, I was a clockwatcher. It helped me get me through the first few months. So I understand when someone is excited about 30 days, etc. I was too.

      As for the ink there - who know. I never got a tattoo, so I don't know what is out there. They're pretty personal, yes? So perhaps your choice to cover it up will be just as personal? Or would a herd of butterflies do? Whatever it is, I am curious to know what you do :)

      Blessings,
      Paul

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  2. I have no idea as I've never had one myself. What about some kind of bracelet in a tribal style like the Maori type.

    Like you say I'm just am alcoholic just like I'm English or male it just is me.

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  3. The date transformation is all about you, baby...you make it into what you want...I love you...I still like the idea of the bracelet...

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