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Thank you all for you responses to my post yesterday. I'd like to say I'm feeling better today but the truth is...I'm not. My spirit is still in the toilet and I feel prayed out. So, in typical Sherry style I've made some decisions based in great part to the amazing advice I received yesterday...
I'm going to meditate and make every effort to listen rather than speak. Yes, I am prayed out...maybe there's a clue there. Duh.
I'm going to actively begin seeking another position. I would LOVE to remain with this company and that's where I'll begin the search. But I don't want to close ANY doors and whatever comes my way I will view as an opportunity. Let's be clear here...they aren't exactly beating down my door...but whatever comes is worth a look.
I'm going to look into some things that may offer me the control I'm seeking. To take back the reigns and maybe do something of which I can be proud.
I'm not going to drink. Or smoke. Or eat Ghiradelli Milk Chocolate chips.
I'm going to give myself exactly 36 more hours at this lame-ass pity party I've been attending and then I'm leaving. No one here I want to talk to anyway. Except this one whiney-ass woman who probably needs her medication adjusted and I don't want to catch what she has.